“Let’s go on a Remembrance Day Hike to a bunker in the mountains” my wife said to me a few weeks ago. I reluctantly agreed, but as the day drew near I was looking for something else to do, anything else really. Yesterday morning came and I was feeling anxious, angry and scared about the hike and was looking for a way out. We were meeting friends, and after my wife answered all of my questions and packed us up, I begrudgingly got in the van and drove us out to the Heart Creek trailhead near Canmore.
I think this was the first time that I was truly able to recognize the full spectrum of emotions that I have toward exercise. I believe this is a positive step as I was able to look at my feelings through a different, more objective lens. A more objective understanding doesn’t mean that I didn’t sulk through the first hour of the hike as we climbed to the mouth of the bunker however. I found the climb difficult – pushing 400 pounds up a mountain is taxing as you might imagine. The climb hurt, my hips and knees ached and there were fleeting thoughts of needing to go back to the van. Maybe the kids would get cold and I could take them back and let the others continue the hike…its a mind game sometimes and yesterday my game was strong.
When we reached the bunker I felt relief. The majority of the climbing was done, although we were only half way through our hike. The way back was much easier for me. I had to watch my footing but I was able to move faster and more confidently. Knowing that we were on our way back made the second half of the hike much easier and my negative emotions subsided for the most part by the time we returned to the van; and I even felt a sense of accomplishment for working through the mind game and finishing a nice hike with my family and friends.
Click on the image for a description of the hike. (I was totally off on the elevation change but it sure felt like more!)
And here is the video after the hike (I recorded these on seperate devices and my BlackBerry won’t let me upload directly to YouTube):