I have been off the rails again as my pattern of food related self destructive behaviour continues. As readers of this blog know I have need moments of heft to get me going. Big notions that help me frame my actions.
I don’t know if it is ADHD related but crafting simple Black or White narratives is pretty critical to staying on board a behavioural change for me. In this case I am 42 today. (Obligatory HHGG reference) and why not use an arbitrary midpoint of my life as moment to pivot away from dependencies and behaviours that serve to hurt me and my long term health. I have attempted this many times. Oh so many. But the other option is give up – an my tenacity driven ethos just doesn’t allow me to fold every hand.
In reading documents related to ADHD and weightloss a recurring theme that appears to generate some success is intermittent fasting. I have dabbled with it for a few weeks before but not going whole hog.
I am doing a 16/8 fast eating between 12-8 pm starting today. I’ll drink water and black coffee in the morning. Given that working from home as resulted in less overall non-intentional activity, I also need an easy way to reduce overall calories. I believe that easy rules will be more easy for me to stay the course. I will re-evaluate at the end of January.
Given that I am back to a daily post, I would say I emerged from a bit of a food fog. I really want to document these challenges and view that as critical to actually changing my behaviour for the long term.
Today was a basic breakfast, sadly the avocados aren’t ripe yet, followed by a veggie heavy lunch and some snacks.
The last three weeks have been hard. While I have documented 95% of my food – I have had a really hard time making good choices. You will see a gallery below of everything I’ve had since November 2. Hallowe’en itself wasn’t difficult but the candy was an ever present lure and temptation. I also had a a few days where I went down to the kitchen at 11 pm because of cravings.
I always feel better the next day when I don’t give into those almost nightly feelings of hunger. The trick is balancing that moment and how I will feel the next day. My general disposition is to reach for the short-term benefit and neglecting the long term.
I waited about 3 weeks to measure and I am very happy with the result. A safe and steady 11.2 lbs so about 3.5 lbs a week to start. I ate lots of great food and being mindful led to a healthy loss. Really good impact on that BMI too.
I think differently from last time that these tracking is something I am going to have to be rigourous about for the rest of my life. Otherwise I will have a shorter life.