That is what I wanted to write. I am a very low point emotionally( I have been for at least two weeks) and with my mood. I feel like I just want to retreat into a a little hole and not let in the outside world.
Typically I am that guy who is universally jovial and excited. I often sing at work and like to bring my enthusiasm to bear in every endeavour in which I participate. That hasn’t been the case lately, though I thought I was getting out of it yesterday after some good conversations. I was singing, not feeling morose
I have wondered if I should share this so publicly. Does it damage me professionally in some way? But I conclude that if it does, these are not people I want to work with. My FAT Project journey is about so much more than weight. It is about healing what has caused my obesity and let it continue. And I believe the main cause is how I handle emotional turmoil, situations and challenges. For years it was so easy to eat problems away, to use food to cope. But now, I need to handle things more thoroughly and deeper. There are always stressful situations.
Thankfully eating is going well as is activity; I walked for over an hour this morning.