The picture above is from September at our mostly annual Royston Invitational Putting Tournament. We set up golf holes on regular lawn and then have friends and family play for a trophy. I am not happy with my size in this picture nor how I was feeling. I had already taken 4 muscle relaxants by this time of the day so I could move well.
I signed a pledge today for the Health at Every Size movement. I like their mission and philosophy, because it aligns with how I am approaching The FAT Project. One of the key pieces is to celebrate your life no matter how much you weigh. Health remains the most important part, always. I found it after reading a post by Lauren Fowler on letting go of your weightloss goal.
I deliberately don’t have a number of pounds I am shooting for. Firstly, my lowest adult weight has been 325 lbs and I don’t know what the ‘right’ size for my body is. Secondly, I am doing the FAT Project to feel better, to live a healthy life and most important to live a full life. I have never been that focused on a number at any point throughout my life. If I felt good and healthy that was my metric.
I have hit a wall where my obesity is concerned. I feel that my size is a barrier in my daily life and is detrimental to my health. I was waking up in pain every morning to the point where I would have to go sit in a recliner for 15 min to reset my back so I could walk properly. My knees ache when I walk, especially upstairs and my shoulders freeze up with incredible pain every few months. I have a varicose vein on my right knee and my ankles have lots of broken blood vessels. I feel very fortunate that I do not have any chronic conditions or issues that prevent me from improving my health through physical activity.
It’s interesting because these aches and pains are a relatively new thing. Since having children, I have not made exercise a priority, but throughout my life I feel that I was a reasonably active, morbidly obese man.
A quick list of things I have done while weighing 325 – 400 lbs:
- Had three children (well, my wife actually was the one who birthed them 🙂 )
- Had a great career and am now CEO of a non-profit
- Completed several long multi-day bike trips (the longest at more than 600 km)
- Climbed down a mountain in Jasper, Alberta
- Completed a Try-A-Tri (400m swim, 10km bike, 2.5km run)
I have spent a long time not listening to or respecting my body. Thinking about Health At Any Size and the mindset that goes with it is a big step to getting there.